Photos on my 21st Birthday!!!!

Men in Uniform

Woah...Eric you lok so cool and shuai dai le...faint -.-...Ha Ha

Bernie

Hey bro, this is dedicated to you..weeeeee!!!!!!!! Thanks for accompanying me to buy stuffs in such last mintue and treating me a meal(lunch+Dinner). Haha......Finally get to sit in an RX8...woo hooo dammmm cool sia.....and thank you so much you were really a gentleman on elping mi with the umbrella and the door plus considerate to park some where easy for me to get out of the car.

Sharing stories and jokes about past and present i believe you felt cold enough le ba and so may conincidentals...haha....Yes sir, i will take into consideration on what you have said and taught me. Maybe the right one have not been clearly seen cause I'm know thinking too much.



So envy you can eat sure good jap food....haha. Anyway good luck for your exams and hope to see ya soon....>.<...super like that car we saw at bishan...haha....still like RX7 also too and my lamo....hehe

Is it Worth It?

Thank you guys for showing me concerning and all, texting me almost every hour asking about my feelings, trying to cheer me up, to show concern, so on and so forth....But is it worth it? We do not know the future you see. I don't understand, I'm not pretty, a little fat, sick, pessimistic, emotional, talk and laugh loudly (well only at home), hot temperred (only for like a few minutes then will calm down and everything back to normal), miht get jealous and a little demanding so on and so forth.....Do you really think i'm worth it, worth your time...Do consider.

Is this just a wooing tactic that all guys use cause i'm quite use to it till I'm not sure whether what is true and what is not. By saying doesn't prove anything, you need time and action to prove it so please give me time to heal. I have felt hurt till i'm numb. I really need time. Hope you all can understand. Thank You.

Can you believe it....

Before Nov, my friends (Nicholas the one who told me, Kristen, Michie, Michelle, Dionne, Eileen, Pei Jin, Xaiver, Alvin) actually bann me from kuromi for 3 weeks and i thought it was like so terrible and so hard to pass the days forcing myself from temptations. The next breaking news is worst, my mum actually said..." That time ur friends bann you from buying kuromi for 3 weeks right,now i bann you from buying for 3 MONTHS... months leh....arghhhhhhh...horrible...nightmare...how could she...haha but i still buy a little small small things can hide one can le haha)

Mum quarrel with dad as usual over things to throw or not to throw, then she forces me to go shopping on my own and even pre-sponsor (meaning i have t pay her back lar) me money for buying important things just to get me out of the house...reason being..(you should know, if u don't know dun ask).

So......i manage to drag Michie (so sorrie to disturb you) with me and went on a shopping spree he he. Went her house and cope some games to play cause very bored. Then it was to late at night to go home alone then had to ask gerrald (michie bro) to send me home. Halfway she mesage me say tat she forgotten that she should have followed me in the car when she herself help me close the door. LoL......Diaoz..Anyway than you michie...love you hehe

So Tired

Life is so tiring,worst still when talking about love.

Is it so hard to find someone whom you love and loves you back,

No family disagrements about religion,

Someone financially stable and understanding.

I know its in my mind but its the fact that i can't control it that why I need to take medication.

If i can control and not take medication then what is this illness born for,

What are medications for,It's to help.

I know most of it is part of my mind and i am trying to cope but you all just can't keeping asking and stressing me to stop medication. I tried before and it didn't work. Instead things got worst, I started to hurt myself and cut myself. Its not as easy as you think or say. Yu have not been through what i have you don't know how it feels. So please i need people to support me to recover and not to force me into depth of darkness.

Just Go Ahead...

堇情地去爱吧 , 就当作不称受过伤。

堇情地跳舞吧，就当作没有人看见。

堇情地去爱吧 ，就当作不称受过伤。

堇情地歌唱吧 ，就当作没有人听见。

堇情地工作吧 ，就当作你不需要钱。

堇情地生身活吧 就当作今天是生命的最后一天。