1) Super stress with exam and project work
2) 3rd sem. result was really bad
3) Last paper i did very badly
4) Rushing project not able to celebrate michie birthday and go animex fair
5) Project very blur, think there's mistake but too late and don't know where went wrong. Just submit.
6) Neighbour tried to mend soccer shoes but accidently drop and the carpet caught fire with thick smoke covering my front door. Neighbour got minor burns and got send to hospital to take injection. Fire brigade and the police came too.
7) Still sick after so long and fever came back
8) Mum sick and MC for 7 days
9) Both of us also went hospital for checkup
10) Deleted a childish guy and jerk who keeps mocking me over the same topic just because i don't wat to let him take photos with weird post. Stupid.
2projects to go,
Awaiting for liberity for school....haha
Monday, August 17, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Things turnning bad
My depression is coming back and suddenly will have atack espically anixety attacks. So tird and restless. Easily feel very lycold. Terrible feeling. Think next time go out must wrap up like penguin and walk. -_-'''
Suddenly keep feeling like dying. Feel like eating everything that i want to eat all the things i like and that my life is coming to an end. I keep praying and seek help but it works only for a while. I can't seem to be strong enough.
I have not found my meaning in life yet. Haiz......
Suddenly keep feeling like dying. Feel like eating everything that i want to eat all the things i like and that my life is coming to an end. I keep praying and seek help but it works only for a while. I can't seem to be strong enough.
I have not found my meaning in life yet. Haiz......
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Sunday at michie
Spend the whole morning till evening looking at my RED book trying to study for exam and start doing project but ended up, the book know's me but i don'y know it. Called for SOS but nobody could help mi...sob sob...SOMEONE help...anyone who understands RSV and NDV..
Super stress right now and all i can do is pray for a clear mind to do my projects andunderstand my exam.
Went for Korean BBQ for dinner today.Food so so only....
Poor seating arrangement in the car, ended up pissed off and shouted. Sorry Kris..T.T
After dinner went to michie house to crap and ba gua.I feel very out of place though.
Super stress right now and all i can do is pray for a clear mind to do my projects andunderstand my exam.
Went for Korean BBQ for dinner today.Food so so only....
Poor seating arrangement in the car, ended up pissed off and shouted. Sorry Kris..T.T
After dinner went to michie house to crap and ba gua.I feel very out of place though.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
A supper disater
Wanted to go to 7 eleven to buy supper but suddenly lost energy in my leg and just fell down infont of the traffic light. Now i have painful wounds on my fingers and knee. It hurts so much. Everything is swollen.
Been having gastric and stomach flu for 3 weeks plus and still no recovery. Everytime i eat i always want to vomit. So i only have 1 meals per day.
Went to school and they say: "wo shi yi ge rong yi shou shang de nu ren". Haha....so true...internally and externally and even emotionally.
Been having gastric and stomach flu for 3 weeks plus and still no recovery. Everytime i eat i always want to vomit. So i only have 1 meals per day.
Went to school and they say: "wo shi yi ge rong yi shou shang de nu ren". Haha....so true...internally and externally and even emotionally.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Chelsea and mirror
When chelsea finally saw herself in the mirror. She was totally curious on why is there a dog infront and staring at me. She strted to freak out and do funni actions and the order dog follows. She was so scared that she keeps running away but at the same time curious. So she keeps peeping from an angle that dosen't show her reflection.
I stared at her using the window and out of the sudden, she started backing off and growl, cry and bark at the reflection and run away. So cute.
I stared at her using the window and out of the sudden, she started backing off and growl, cry and bark at the reflection and run away. So cute.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Bad weather......Bad health
Swine flu symptoms, all i kenna. Feel terrible and even saw 3 different doctors on the same day but end up really cannot make it, breathing dificulties and cramps and hyperventaliation. End up send in to TTSH A&E.
At the clinic was a jab, to calm my nervers down then i became drowsy and numb. I remember the doc was a young male but didn't see how he looked lke caused was already like gonna faint le and eyes were just meekly opened. He kept calling my name and i think i was supposed to answer but too tired. Then he shine light into my eye and i totally closed my eyes. He use his knuckle and applied pressure to my chest the rib-cage area just below the throat. Damm pain sia. I would have shout pain louder if not for the injection.
Later the paramedics came and drove me off to the hospital, head keep spinning and they keep talking to me and check heart rate (150 heard they say it was very fast compared to normal heart rate beating), blood pressure and prick my finger dunno test wat. Just that short journey temp went up from 37.8-37.4-38.1......therefore was sent to the tent area and there had a blood test, urine test and X-ray.
As some may know i hate needles and worst still on that day not only draw blood still have to be on IV drip plus laying on the bed at the tent area with those suspeced case of H1N1 virus. Some got admitted while others got to go back. I was considered lucky to get to go home on that day (from 12am-5am) but the whole test and happening, i was all alone and so afraid of so many things espically when something is stuck up my veins. (T.T)
Went home still sick and till now i still don't feel well. Principle and teacher also notice i never turn up for lesson even though was like for a part time course. Well sat lesson i missed 3 already...principle see mi already say how come i never turn up and everytime see me always take medicaton haha then he disturb mi i kenna swine flu ah then nod my head...immediately he ask mi to go seat at the side..hahaha he is so funni, interacts and make effort to know all students and joke with us. Then my lecturer was like so susprised i actually turned up for lesson (yesterday)......
This whole incident reminds me of the SARS period of which i also got stuck at home and having a whole level to myself to do my O levels chinese paper. The incidents are really super funni. If interested then ask mi then i tell u....hahaha....most of my friends should know though...>.<
At the clinic was a jab, to calm my nervers down then i became drowsy and numb. I remember the doc was a young male but didn't see how he looked lke caused was already like gonna faint le and eyes were just meekly opened. He kept calling my name and i think i was supposed to answer but too tired. Then he shine light into my eye and i totally closed my eyes. He use his knuckle and applied pressure to my chest the rib-cage area just below the throat. Damm pain sia. I would have shout pain louder if not for the injection.
Later the paramedics came and drove me off to the hospital, head keep spinning and they keep talking to me and check heart rate (150 heard they say it was very fast compared to normal heart rate beating), blood pressure and prick my finger dunno test wat. Just that short journey temp went up from 37.8-37.4-38.1......therefore was sent to the tent area and there had a blood test, urine test and X-ray.
As some may know i hate needles and worst still on that day not only draw blood still have to be on IV drip plus laying on the bed at the tent area with those suspeced case of H1N1 virus. Some got admitted while others got to go back. I was considered lucky to get to go home on that day (from 12am-5am) but the whole test and happening, i was all alone and so afraid of so many things espically when something is stuck up my veins. (T.T)
Went home still sick and till now i still don't feel well. Principle and teacher also notice i never turn up for lesson even though was like for a part time course. Well sat lesson i missed 3 already...principle see mi already say how come i never turn up and everytime see me always take medicaton haha then he disturb mi i kenna swine flu ah then nod my head...immediately he ask mi to go seat at the side..hahaha he is so funni, interacts and make effort to know all students and joke with us. Then my lecturer was like so susprised i actually turned up for lesson (yesterday)......
This whole incident reminds me of the SARS period of which i also got stuck at home and having a whole level to myself to do my O levels chinese paper. The incidents are really super funni. If interested then ask mi then i tell u....hahaha....most of my friends should know though...>.<
Sunday, June 7, 2009
2 seperate things
First its house warming followed by desert @ chocolate bar and have fun at ButterFactory. Really enjoy the outing with all my friends and even though was chua's birthday. I thoughly enjoy though forehead got 2 pimple. Luckily subsiding.
Aiming to bu a better camers and a better smile. People only keep say chua pretty and kris cute. The rest of us so left out...sob sob I want to build back confidence.
Praying that my 3rd sem results will go on smoothly. Already kenna a BCC le for the first 3.
Plus so many things is happening around me. I don't know how to react and wat to react. Sometimes just feel like crying and breaking down.
Grandma just came back from hospital. I called for ambulance and gave the details. Then one told me to relax cause i already howing signs of panic. Then the phone keep ringing asking wat happen which hspital and so on and insisting on which hospital to go to. Ringing none stop till i feel stress and cry. End up the paramedic got to calm me down cause i was crying and starting t hyperventilate and the boss of the team and another paramedic had to sort of lift me by the arms to sit on the wheelchair. Grandma got scared me too and we both share the same systoms. Ended up she was hospitalised due to breathing difficulties but discharge le. So happy. Kenna scolded by mum though cause she say cry for what. Cry sure cramp then still cry. I say i stress from all the phone calls but still kenna a light scolding plus make her angry. Haiz.
For my Great grandfather, one time he actualy ask mi to go buy sugar for him to make tea. I was young and playing at the playground. (Very long time ago le) then i found it irrating cause i couldn't play already. Never did i know that that was my first and last timei could help him. He had TB and we staying in hospital to stay with him and ICU and the CDC then back to hospital. He passed away. I didn't cry some did. I stay up at night to help out during the whole funeral. Only when i saw his coffin being pushed into the fire. I cried and couldn't stop. Till now i still keep thinking of him.
I regreted feeling fustrated at him. I should have more tolerance, it happened to my grandma too but she is still young and fine but i don't want history to repeat again. Sometimes i guess ld ppl are quite naggy but in ways they are cute and always there for us. I believe when i grow older i will be worst cause now i'm already naging some people. haha.
Cherish what you have now so that you won't regret when there're gone. Till now i'm still learning to act upon this sentance.
Aiming to bu a better camers and a better smile. People only keep say chua pretty and kris cute. The rest of us so left out...sob sob I want to build back confidence.
Praying that my 3rd sem results will go on smoothly. Already kenna a BCC le for the first 3.
Plus so many things is happening around me. I don't know how to react and wat to react. Sometimes just feel like crying and breaking down.
Grandma just came back from hospital. I called for ambulance and gave the details. Then one told me to relax cause i already howing signs of panic. Then the phone keep ringing asking wat happen which hspital and so on and insisting on which hospital to go to. Ringing none stop till i feel stress and cry. End up the paramedic got to calm me down cause i was crying and starting t hyperventilate and the boss of the team and another paramedic had to sort of lift me by the arms to sit on the wheelchair. Grandma got scared me too and we both share the same systoms. Ended up she was hospitalised due to breathing difficulties but discharge le. So happy. Kenna scolded by mum though cause she say cry for what. Cry sure cramp then still cry. I say i stress from all the phone calls but still kenna a light scolding plus make her angry. Haiz.
For my Great grandfather, one time he actualy ask mi to go buy sugar for him to make tea. I was young and playing at the playground. (Very long time ago le) then i found it irrating cause i couldn't play already. Never did i know that that was my first and last timei could help him. He had TB and we staying in hospital to stay with him and ICU and the CDC then back to hospital. He passed away. I didn't cry some did. I stay up at night to help out during the whole funeral. Only when i saw his coffin being pushed into the fire. I cried and couldn't stop. Till now i still keep thinking of him.
I regreted feeling fustrated at him. I should have more tolerance, it happened to my grandma too but she is still young and fine but i don't want history to repeat again. Sometimes i guess ld ppl are quite naggy but in ways they are cute and always there for us. I believe when i grow older i will be worst cause now i'm already naging some people. haha.
Cherish what you have now so that you won't regret when there're gone. Till now i'm still learning to act upon this sentance.
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