I will submit to No-one

I wasn't like this before but something made me change and i can neverhange back again. No one have one through what i've gone though and no one knows what i truely feel not even myself. I just try to hide and hide and sometimes it just pops out like a jack in the box. I am brought up to not depend on men. Men in my family cannot be trusted and had hurt me and my mother and grandmother. Its enough. Just let us go.

Everytme i get into a relationship, i warn ppl about my character and they all say they can take it. Tell me how much they love me and no matter what they will still love me. All are rubbish. 8 relationships all failures.

I admit that i am:
- tempremental (easily gets agitated and flares up but cools downs easily)
- lazy - weak in health
- still hanging on the fears of the past
- loud
- crazy
- daring ( in a sense of speech)

and many more......If you cannot accept the worst of me then u are not worthy to accept the best from me. I will submit to no-one.

Don't provoke me and don't even think about trying to take advantage of me. I have had it. Don't make me turn into a wandering spirit and dun make me unfilial to my mother.