2 seperate things

First its house warming followed by desert @ chocolate bar and have fun at ButterFactory. Really enjoy the outing with all my friends and even though was chua's birthday. I thoughly enjoy though forehead got 2 pimple. Luckily subsiding.

Aiming to bu a better camers and a better smile. People only keep say chua pretty and kris cute. The rest of us so left out...sob sob I want to build back confidence.

Praying that my 3rd sem results will go on smoothly. Already kenna a BCC le for the first 3.

Plus so many things is happening around me. I don't know how to react and wat to react. Sometimes just feel like crying and breaking down.

Grandma just came back from hospital. I called for ambulance and gave the details. Then one told me to relax cause i already howing signs of panic. Then the phone keep ringing asking wat happen which hspital and so on and insisting on which hospital to go to. Ringing none stop till i feel stress and cry. End up the paramedic got to calm me down cause i was crying and starting t hyperventilate and the boss of the team and another paramedic had to sort of lift me by the arms to sit on the wheelchair. Grandma got scared me too and we both share the same systoms. Ended up she was hospitalised due to breathing difficulties but discharge le. So happy. Kenna scolded by mum though cause she say cry for what. Cry sure cramp then still cry. I say i stress from all the phone calls but still kenna a light scolding plus make her angry. Haiz.

For my Great grandfather, one time he actualy ask mi to go buy sugar for him to make tea. I was young and playing at the playground. (Very long time ago le) then i found it irrating cause i couldn't play already. Never did i know that that was my first and last timei could help him. He had TB and we staying in hospital to stay with him and ICU and the CDC then back to hospital. He passed away. I didn't cry some did. I stay up at night to help out during the whole funeral. Only when i saw his coffin being pushed into the fire. I cried and couldn't stop. Till now i still keep thinking of him.

I regreted feeling fustrated at him. I should have more tolerance, it happened to my grandma too but she is still young and fine but i don't want history to repeat again. Sometimes i guess ld ppl are quite naggy but in ways they are cute and always there for us. I believe when i grow older i will be worst cause now i'm already naging some people. haha.

Cherish what you have now so that you won't regret when there're gone. Till now i'm still learning to act upon this sentance.