History repeating itself

Is it so hard to maintain a frienship or a fun outdoor gathering just because someone is attached? So as to have a normal and fun outing ends up amages in all place. Friends, bf and me. What's the point. I can't always blame on my deression even though its medically proven that it got worst but i still have to manage it i know. Now glen keep asking me is it because of him that i cannot enjoy mt time with friends. I seriously don't think its his. But it have became an image setted.

An outing but just because glen is around we 2 have to be left alone? Why? Say to "xiang qin xiang ai"? If i have not spent enough time with him i would have accompained him instead of going out as a group. When i go out as a group, it becomes no difference from a date with him. So whats the whole point about going out as a group? I seriously don't understand. Not updated about wearbouts when saying will reach marina sqare to eat. Waited there like idots not knowing anything. Last minute recieve phone call say at city link. From marina barrage go city link when saying on the way to marina square and ended up choose to go back to flyer after asked mi to decide and wait.

When out without glen, i'm stupid. I can't catch up wit things and topics, then ended up left out. Ask? This secret that secret. Then go out in couple, 2 person goes invisible. When voicing out on how i felt i was treated ppl say i hurt them by saying this. But sometimes with so many ppl u really tend to neglect others. Odd numbers is always like that. Especially while walking.

Voice out wrong. Don't voice out ppl say u never voice out how they know. So how? "tay gong tay siao" lar?