Whats's wrong

Life

I simply give up already. I really feel like crying but it seems that i can't really cry much like before le. Have i grown and seen through things? I don't know. I know somehing is wrong with me. I am trying to change for the better but i need time. I also need to accept the truth and fact. Yes i do like attention but the right one, someone i can talk to when troubled and go out shoping with like "brothers" and "sisters", i know as time passes all will lose contact due to own personal life but for now, why not enjoy the chance of youth and fun.

Am i that bad to deserve all these? What did i do wrong. Too over friendly? Too direct? Too naive? Too talkive? Too ugly? Whats wrong. I see faults in myself but i am those that not by scolding then i will change but through talking. But sometimes its just my nature. I know this will bring my troubles but i just can't bear the consequences of hurting others. I try my very best but still it doesn't work. In the end i get scolded.

Why people think that i am rich and will come to me for financial problem. I myself already have problems with my own finance. My friends are there to support me by reminding me what i buy is wether a not or a need and i am practicing it.

Relationships are so much troubles. Having problems with friends, family and even conflicts within myself, i feel so out-casted. Sometimes death seems to be the solution but life is something to go through and learn. Since we have a chance to live, why not live it to its fullest. So i decided to live it according to what my life is suppose to be ba.

School

Currently quite stress with my school. I just simply lay too much expectation on myself. Everyone will say a pass will do but to me i have a dream iwant to achieve it. I want my parents to be proud when people ask about their daughter. But they don't really care about my thinking. All they want is a simple and healthy life. Yes understand that and i want that but in Singapore society without qualifactions it is difficult to achieve every dream.

World

The world seems to be ending soon, economic crisis, terrorism, political issues, global warming, so many people suffering and dying. Its sooner or later. I guess we should all cherish every single moment n life and not live in unnecessary pain and troubles.