Scary Day

I don't know what happen today but i started crying and screaming, hitting myself against the wall and thought of jumping off my flat from my room. Till now my head still hurts form the knocking against the walls and window grill. I don't know whats happening to me.

People scold me say it all in my mind and that i can control. Its not easy. You have not gone through what i have and u are not me. You never got depression so how can u judge me. You ask me to stop medication and all those...u think u are helping me but u are not i can tell me. You are making me worst then before and please just stop making things worst for me.

I am already starting not to trust any other people and isolating myself from the crowd. So just let me be. Sometimes it is so difficult to act as though nothing have happened. But it have. So please just stop pressuring me. I really feel afriad of what happened to me this afternoon. At this rate, maybe death is the only choice.