Trying to change

Life an't getting easy for me. It seems like people around me just can't accept me for who i am. I admit my flaws and i am trying to change my self. To be a better me. A more self-controlled and carefree person. Living life happy regardless of those idiot "sexual predators" around and all the negative things happening around me.

Friends and relatives wants me to return to the old me. The happy go lucky and bubbly and talktive me. Now the kind of me is the kind that wants to just stay in one corner of the room and just stay there not wanting to hear anything and say anything. Just sit and sleep there and never waking up.

I am still entangled by the past and present. Known friends that aren't friends. People keep telling me that my Mr Right have not come along but how will i know. Maybe i should just be alone. Just stay with my pets. Don't need no one. Don't trust no one. You never know when will one backstab you.

To know a guy friend one it seems like they only want sex. One just very straightforward and asked. Where i want to go. I said to plaza singapure. He said i only want to go to Hotel 81 and watch DVD if not don't one. I said no and i won't bother him anymore and he said please don't bother me anymore so i deleted his contact immediately. Y do i always end up meeting these kind of guys that end up hurting me. All i want is to know more friends.