Swine flu symptoms, all i kenna. Feel terrible and even saw 3 different doctors on the same day but end up really cannot make it, breathing dificulties and cramps and hyperventaliation. End up send in to TTSH A&E.
At the clinic was a jab, to calm my nervers down then i became drowsy and numb. I remember the doc was a young male but didn't see how he looked lke caused was already like gonna faint le and eyes were just meekly opened. He kept calling my name and i think i was supposed to answer but too tired. Then he shine light into my eye and i totally closed my eyes. He use his knuckle and applied pressure to my chest the rib-cage area just below the throat. Damm pain sia. I would have shout pain louder if not for the injection.
Later the paramedics came and drove me off to the hospital, head keep spinning and they keep talking to me and check heart rate (150 heard they say it was very fast compared to normal heart rate beating), blood pressure and prick my finger dunno test wat. Just that short journey temp went up from 37.8-37.4-38.1......therefore was sent to the tent area and there had a blood test, urine test and X-ray.
As some may know i hate needles and worst still on that day not only draw blood still have to be on IV drip plus laying on the bed at the tent area with those suspeced case of H1N1 virus. Some got admitted while others got to go back. I was considered lucky to get to go home on that day (from 12am-5am) but the whole test and happening, i was all alone and so afraid of so many things espically when something is stuck up my veins. (T.T)
Went home still sick and till now i still don't feel well. Principle and teacher also notice i never turn up for lesson even though was like for a part time course. Well sat lesson i missed 3 already...principle see mi already say how come i never turn up and everytime see me always take medicaton haha then he disturb mi i kenna swine flu ah then nod my head...immediately he ask mi to go seat at the side..hahaha he is so funni, interacts and make effort to know all students and joke with us. Then my lecturer was like so susprised i actually turned up for lesson (yesterday)......
This whole incident reminds me of the SARS period of which i also got stuck at home and having a whole level to myself to do my O levels chinese paper. The incidents are really super funni. If interested then ask mi then i tell u....hahaha....most of my friends should know though...>.<
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Sunday, June 7, 2009
2 seperate things
First its house warming followed by desert @ chocolate bar and have fun at ButterFactory. Really enjoy the outing with all my friends and even though was chua's birthday. I thoughly enjoy though forehead got 2 pimple. Luckily subsiding.
Aiming to bu a better camers and a better smile. People only keep say chua pretty and kris cute. The rest of us so left out...sob sob I want to build back confidence.
Praying that my 3rd sem results will go on smoothly. Already kenna a BCC le for the first 3.
Plus so many things is happening around me. I don't know how to react and wat to react. Sometimes just feel like crying and breaking down.
Grandma just came back from hospital. I called for ambulance and gave the details. Then one told me to relax cause i already howing signs of panic. Then the phone keep ringing asking wat happen which hspital and so on and insisting on which hospital to go to. Ringing none stop till i feel stress and cry. End up the paramedic got to calm me down cause i was crying and starting t hyperventilate and the boss of the team and another paramedic had to sort of lift me by the arms to sit on the wheelchair. Grandma got scared me too and we both share the same systoms. Ended up she was hospitalised due to breathing difficulties but discharge le. So happy. Kenna scolded by mum though cause she say cry for what. Cry sure cramp then still cry. I say i stress from all the phone calls but still kenna a light scolding plus make her angry. Haiz.
For my Great grandfather, one time he actualy ask mi to go buy sugar for him to make tea. I was young and playing at the playground. (Very long time ago le) then i found it irrating cause i couldn't play already. Never did i know that that was my first and last timei could help him. He had TB and we staying in hospital to stay with him and ICU and the CDC then back to hospital. He passed away. I didn't cry some did. I stay up at night to help out during the whole funeral. Only when i saw his coffin being pushed into the fire. I cried and couldn't stop. Till now i still keep thinking of him.
I regreted feeling fustrated at him. I should have more tolerance, it happened to my grandma too but she is still young and fine but i don't want history to repeat again. Sometimes i guess ld ppl are quite naggy but in ways they are cute and always there for us. I believe when i grow older i will be worst cause now i'm already naging some people. haha.
Cherish what you have now so that you won't regret when there're gone. Till now i'm still learning to act upon this sentance.
Aiming to bu a better camers and a better smile. People only keep say chua pretty and kris cute. The rest of us so left out...sob sob I want to build back confidence.
Praying that my 3rd sem results will go on smoothly. Already kenna a BCC le for the first 3.
Plus so many things is happening around me. I don't know how to react and wat to react. Sometimes just feel like crying and breaking down.
Grandma just came back from hospital. I called for ambulance and gave the details. Then one told me to relax cause i already howing signs of panic. Then the phone keep ringing asking wat happen which hspital and so on and insisting on which hospital to go to. Ringing none stop till i feel stress and cry. End up the paramedic got to calm me down cause i was crying and starting t hyperventilate and the boss of the team and another paramedic had to sort of lift me by the arms to sit on the wheelchair. Grandma got scared me too and we both share the same systoms. Ended up she was hospitalised due to breathing difficulties but discharge le. So happy. Kenna scolded by mum though cause she say cry for what. Cry sure cramp then still cry. I say i stress from all the phone calls but still kenna a light scolding plus make her angry. Haiz.
For my Great grandfather, one time he actualy ask mi to go buy sugar for him to make tea. I was young and playing at the playground. (Very long time ago le) then i found it irrating cause i couldn't play already. Never did i know that that was my first and last timei could help him. He had TB and we staying in hospital to stay with him and ICU and the CDC then back to hospital. He passed away. I didn't cry some did. I stay up at night to help out during the whole funeral. Only when i saw his coffin being pushed into the fire. I cried and couldn't stop. Till now i still keep thinking of him.
I regreted feeling fustrated at him. I should have more tolerance, it happened to my grandma too but she is still young and fine but i don't want history to repeat again. Sometimes i guess ld ppl are quite naggy but in ways they are cute and always there for us. I believe when i grow older i will be worst cause now i'm already naging some people. haha.
Cherish what you have now so that you won't regret when there're gone. Till now i'm still learning to act upon this sentance.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Business Marketing
So many times i feel like giving up having doubts on my ability but something just keeps me going, Seriously i was quite skeptic about MLM but something changed. The company, the people, the culture and espically the product totally changed my opinion.
I believe in the products that it wll help people improve their lives as it is helping me now. There was a time where a kept changing facial products and my facial conditions totally got affected + side effects frm the medications i'm taking.
My mum convinced me back to using Nuskin and in just days, seriously, my pimples and scar marks on my forehead toned down. (Friends should have notice cause they all keep asking what hapen to my foread that time) Well it does't totally remove acne by just using 2 products but just this simple 2 products actually changed my complexion. I am a living example.
However, people are just too skeptic about MLM. They always back away and sometimes condam you from their life. Why does a product that can help the people and the poor end up like this. Losing contacts friends and even stress from loved ones because of a passion for the job.
Different companies have different polices. It was that special thing about the company that i joined. Seriously i don't wish to loose people over jobs. If one would eally even try to know the product more or even go for a free demo, there are no harm done. No obligation to purchase. We just want to let the ublic know that there are such products out there that can help improve ur life.
Advisors have told me not to bring emotional feelings when rejected. Start everyday as a brand new day.
I believe in the products that it wll help people improve their lives as it is helping me now. There was a time where a kept changing facial products and my facial conditions totally got affected + side effects frm the medications i'm taking.
My mum convinced me back to using Nuskin and in just days, seriously, my pimples and scar marks on my forehead toned down. (Friends should have notice cause they all keep asking what hapen to my foread that time) Well it does't totally remove acne by just using 2 products but just this simple 2 products actually changed my complexion. I am a living example.
However, people are just too skeptic about MLM. They always back away and sometimes condam you from their life. Why does a product that can help the people and the poor end up like this. Losing contacts friends and even stress from loved ones because of a passion for the job.
Different companies have different polices. It was that special thing about the company that i joined. Seriously i don't wish to loose people over jobs. If one would eally even try to know the product more or even go for a free demo, there are no harm done. No obligation to purchase. We just want to let the ublic know that there are such products out there that can help improve ur life.
Advisors have told me not to bring emotional feelings when rejected. Start everyday as a brand new day.
Friday, May 15, 2009
14/05/09
Friend came to pick me up
Heavy traffic and Emas tow truck was moving towards tunnel
Got lost as driver thought he knew the place
Drove me all around until alexandra IKEA
Panic attack = Screamming, shouting, crying and hitting myself
Needed guidance and principl help to get to exmination hall
Late almost for half an hour
No extra time given
Didn't manage to complete the paper even though i knew how to do it
If i were to fail, i hav to waste $ and time
Medical fees already taing up alot of the finance
Plus more stress
The school schedule have a suden change in module
First Sem subject was combined as one even though we studied for 2
Exam layout suddenly changed and too all by susprise
At first some only based on assignment now all must do assignment and exam
Exam paper requires more from student but time was too short to complete
Result outcome = Stress
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Trying to change
Life an't getting easy for me. It seems like people around me just can't accept me for who i am. I admit my flaws and i am trying to change my self. To be a better me. A more self-controlled and carefree person. Living life happy regardless of those idiot "sexual predators" around and all the negative things happening around me.
Friends and relatives wants me to return to the old me. The happy go lucky and bubbly and talktive me. Now the kind of me is the kind that wants to just stay in one corner of the room and just stay there not wanting to hear anything and say anything. Just sit and sleep there and never waking up.
I am still entangled by the past and present. Known friends that aren't friends. People keep telling me that my Mr Right have not come along but how will i know. Maybe i should just be alone. Just stay with my pets. Don't need no one. Don't trust no one. You never know when will one backstab you.
To know a guy friend one it seems like they only want sex. One just very straightforward and asked. Where i want to go. I said to plaza singapure. He said i only want to go to Hotel 81 and watch DVD if not don't one. I said no and i won't bother him anymore and he said please don't bother me anymore so i deleted his contact immediately. Y do i always end up meeting these kind of guys that end up hurting me. All i want is to know more friends.
Friends and relatives wants me to return to the old me. The happy go lucky and bubbly and talktive me. Now the kind of me is the kind that wants to just stay in one corner of the room and just stay there not wanting to hear anything and say anything. Just sit and sleep there and never waking up.
I am still entangled by the past and present. Known friends that aren't friends. People keep telling me that my Mr Right have not come along but how will i know. Maybe i should just be alone. Just stay with my pets. Don't need no one. Don't trust no one. You never know when will one backstab you.
To know a guy friend one it seems like they only want sex. One just very straightforward and asked. Where i want to go. I said to plaza singapure. He said i only want to go to Hotel 81 and watch DVD if not don't one. I said no and i won't bother him anymore and he said please don't bother me anymore so i deleted his contact immediately. Y do i always end up meeting these kind of guys that end up hurting me. All i want is to know more friends.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
A Question
If someone asked you this question. Will you love mi regardless of my financial status.
How will u answer?
If u love me you will want me to be happy and not stress about finance of the family. I don't ask for much. Just a normal HDB flat and able to pay bills and eat out at times. Is that too much to ask? Is this considered materialistic?
If someone asked you after sometimes in the marriage and he goes broke will u still love him.
How will u answer?
I believe by then we will have some savings and i have a stable job to help go through the tough time but of course u have to stand back on your feet, be realistic and work hard to help in the family. If you just stay where u are and not willing to work, definately it will be too stressful for me to "yang ni" and let people say nasty stuff about u. Can you accept it?
To start a family love and finance is a necessity. How can we choose either one. It can only be weigh on a scale but both must be present.
Is my concept wrong?
How will u answer?
If u love me you will want me to be happy and not stress about finance of the family. I don't ask for much. Just a normal HDB flat and able to pay bills and eat out at times. Is that too much to ask? Is this considered materialistic?
If someone asked you after sometimes in the marriage and he goes broke will u still love him.
How will u answer?
I believe by then we will have some savings and i have a stable job to help go through the tough time but of course u have to stand back on your feet, be realistic and work hard to help in the family. If you just stay where u are and not willing to work, definately it will be too stressful for me to "yang ni" and let people say nasty stuff about u. Can you accept it?
To start a family love and finance is a necessity. How can we choose either one. It can only be weigh on a scale but both must be present.
Is my concept wrong?
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
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