God i thank you for all that you have given me. I recieve everything with thanks. Thank you for giving me a blessed life partner who understands my condition and love me whole heartedly, always there to protect me and explain your blessings to me. Thank you for answering my prayers. He is everything i wish for.
I'm really sorry that i have been so selfish. I know they care for me and wish to give me happiness but still i have choosen not to hurt them by not going into a loveless relationship.
Did i do wrong? If i had accepted them, i will not be happy and in the end both parties will not be happy. I don't want to hurt them in anyway thats y i did not accept them. This way the depth of pain will not be so deep. Isn't it best that way?
I did not lie. Yes i said before that i don't want a bf yet but i met him and emotions just flowed naturally. I know that they feel hurt cause i did not accept them but do i deserve to feel pain and guilty for their sadness?
I want to move on and fight for my own happiness. Everyone should do that. My pyschiarist said i have made improvements in my illness and this happiness came from this new relationship that i share. If "you" really treat me as a friend, please give me your support and blessings as i pay for you to find ur true happiness too.
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